i'd lie.

you asked me if i was okay. and somehow, i managed to say yes. i'm really not sure how, because i was holding my breath so i wouldn't cry. you asked me why i've seemed distant lately, and it's simply because i feel like i'm losing you. i don't seem to entertain you like i did before, you never call anymore, and everytime we're together, you're stuck on that stupid tv show and you completely ignore me. i hate having to ask you 5 times to come sit with me, i feel like i should mean more then that. i'm not asking a whole lot, simply that you come and sit down with me. but instead you sit across your room and find every excuse to get up and leave. you don't hold me the way you used to. you tell me you love me, and that i'm your world. but it's just that you don't do anything ro prove it anymore. and i don't feel like you want to be close to me anymore. i just don't feel it. these words just fall off of my fingertips like bullets, and nothing seems to make me feel better. my mom noticed i've been bitter with her, it's because i've been bitter with myself. i want to love you, i really do. but you're making it so hard. i just want you to hold me every once in a while, not only when i'm crying. it just makes me want to scream, what we were, just a week ago, it's already so different. i think i gave you my heart too fast, this is just hurting too much right now. i don't want to have to ask you to love me, to hold me, to kiss me. i shouldn't have to always go chasing after you.

i want you to come up to me, look at me straight in the eyes, and simply hold me.

because that's all i need right now. i just need a hug.

but you're just so caught up in your whole world.

when it comes to the point that you have to ask me 3, 4, 5 times if i'm okay, it obviously means i'm not alright. this crazy thing we call love, is ripping me apart lately. i want to be close to you, and i feel like you just keep on walking away, at a steady pace.

i want to love you, and you keep on walking away.