i want her to go away.
i want her to see that she's not welcome.
i want her to realize that you're better off without her.

because i can't help but remember,
how you were about to replace me,
how you were ready to let me go.
"i've known her for years".
if that's what's important for you, we're clearly
going to have alot of problems.

i met her yesterday, she walked up to you,
with the biggest smile on her face.
she started up a conversation with you,
trying to avoid getting me into it,
but i still put in the random laugh,
the random agreeing.
she did not make eye contact with me once.
avoiding my glance.
i just wanted to walk away and start screaming.
i wanted to scream at her,
and tell her how much you've hurt me,
because of her.
how she's so much prettier then me,
slimmer then me,
but i sure as hell know, she could never ever
love you as much as me.

i've always wanted to be someone's everything.
i've always gotten replaced with someone wittier,
prettier, slimmer, funnier, just better all around.
and for once, i had been so convinced that i was going
to infact, be that person.

but reality smashed down on me.
i was over it. it was done.
it happened over a month ago,
and i had finally gotten her out of my head.
but she walks up to you, like i didn't even exist.
and then, big fucking suprise,
you let go of my hand.
you have no idea how much i hate her.
you have no idea how many nights there,
i lay staring at the ceiling, trying to figure out,
what she has that i don't.

no matter how many pretty words you say,
telling me how she dosn't matter,
and how much we trust eachother,
and how you tell me everything,
you don't.
or i wouldn't have been so hurt,
you tried to HIDE her from me,
that's lying.

and all i can say, is that i still feel cheated.
because bottom line is

emotional cheating is worse then physical.