oblivious

the words stumbled off my tongue,
and you looked at me like i had just destroyed
every notion of who you thought you were.
i just wanted to hate you so badly.
i urged to scream at you from the top of my lungs,
and spill out all my thoughts onto the floor.

i can keep a grudge,
but im a master at keeping it under covers.
i still hate every mention of her name,
and the thought of it all makes me cringe,
just a bit more and it would make me physically sick.

i should be over this by now
it's been 4 long wonderful months,
she wants all of us to get together sometime,
but we don't all belong together, you belong with me.
she still wants you, so bad.
and somehow, still, you're oblivious to it.

that nightlight stays on in my head,
it sparks and burns out everytime she comes into mention.
i wish it had been worth it, i wish i had been worth it.
you put us on the line.


we're moving together soon,
and never will she enter our home.
she wants something she can't have, but the thing is,
she had it for a little bit, and i was oblivious.

maybe i've been oblivious all along.
why did you have to make this so hard?