amazing day.

i woke up yesterday morning,
with your text message.
a smile grew instantly on my face.

i had a feeling it was going to be a great day.
i got up, cleaned, and then was making plans with you, as to when you were going to come over.
as i was on the phone with you,
i was checking my emails,
and found out i was accepted to college.
in photograhy, the one thing i love.
i honestly cried, and i got to share that
with you.

my father called me abu for the first time,
in over ten years.
he thought it would embarass me,
but honestly, i love it when he calls me abu.
the day just got better.

and then, later that night,
you were lying next to me, and was explaining,
how one of your friends saw us holding hands.
"charles who's your new girl?"
"just a friend"

as you re-explained the events, my stomach turned.
just a friend?

"charles, friends don't hold hands"
"we do."

i couldn't just sit there and smile,
while you told me we were just friends.
i didn't want to bring it up,
i tried to brush it off.
you could tell right away,
and you kept on asking me,
what was wrong.

i kept on answering nothing, faking a smile.
i just wanted to roll up in a ball and cry.
you were holding me, and kissing my forehead.
"just friends, just friends, just friends"
i kept on telling myself, trying to convince myself,
there would never be anything else,
that this is what you thought.

eventually it just became unbearable,
because you had implied "girlfriend"
many times before, then swapped it back
to "just friends".
confused, hurt, and ready to cry, i asked you:
"where do we stand?"
and then you asked me:
"where do you want to stand"
i knew the answer to that question,
but i chose to say "i don't know".
i was afraid to hear what you thought,
that we were "just friends".

but you asked me
"do you want to be together?"
i didn't know what to expect after i'd answer.
i nodded, unsure of what i had just done.
"let's be together then"
with a loving smile on his face.
"this is just something i can't back down on"
i smiled even bigger.

everything felt alright,
without a doubt in my mind,
i just smiled him and kissed him.
everything had found it's place.
and this "in-between" love,
was gone.

i was yours now, and you're mine.
you still don't know my wish.
but we're well on our way.

i figured this would be a good day,
but i never saw this coming.